Amazing
The last few months have been pretty much amazing in my life. I've realized more then ever that this God that I serve has an abundance of grace that he is willing to spill out on anyone. All we have to do is ask for it. Within the last few months, my relationship with God has been put back on track. I started going to this wonderful church and a lot of healing took place in my heart. God brought into my life a group of friends that are some of the most amazing people I've ever met (of course Michael is the MOST amazing! ;) ). They have proven to me that people my age can love God, and still be relevant and real. They've shown me that the hypocrisy I had been seeing all over the "body of Christ" doesn't exist everywhere. About a month ago, I found out that my mom was really sick. These friends, who I had known for about a month at this time, were there for me in a big way. Praying with me before her MRI, checking on me after, hanging out and distracting me from all of it, the list goes on. They've made me realize the kind of friends that I want in my life. I feel like I've had some kind of refreshing in my life, areas that were stale are now clean and new. I've discovered who I want to be, what I want to put priority on in my life. I got involved in the youth ministry at my church as well. It's been the most rewarding thing I've done in a really long time. I'm not going to say that I've been perfect, that's not the case at all. I doubted whether God was going to actually use me to help these students because why would he want ME? However, he is a God of grace, and I'm learning that nothing we ever could do will change how much God loves us. If we're willing and pursue Him then He will give us the desires of our hearts. We had a youth retreat and talking to and praying with some of those girls confirmed in me, what I want to do with my life. I've realized more of God's heart, he only wants to love us, and have us return that love. It's incredible when I look back on my life the past year, I feel like a different person today then I was even 3 months ago. My heart was pretty hard toward a lot of things, I had very few friends that I wanted involved in my life, and I wasn't even sure if I really wanted to have God in my life. Now all that has changed, my heart is soft and I'm excited to go to church and see what God's doing next, I have always had amazing, supportive friends and once again God has supplied with the friends that I need, and all of this happened without me even asking for it. So thanks to the God of this universe who had enough love to notice me. I couldn't ask for a better life.